i need to let it out...(multiply post 4/21/08)

its been 2weeks since the very traumatic experience we've had with joelits, he's ok now, back to makulit mode,evrythings back to normal..iguess... not for me, i need to let it out, gosh hindi parin ako ok. its always on my mind,the smile of joelits as he wakes up from a sleep that suddenly turned to a loud scream( scream of so much pain) then to the state where he turned pale and his eyes were so scary, i really panic as it was the first time i saw him that way, that i forgot to calm myself down and carried him agad to his father ( he panic as well...) we got so scared we thought nooo we can't loose you, not now not ever. as we rushed him to the nearest hosp. all i do is massage his feet,head,hands, hug him tight and tell him baby pls.hold on,wake up wake up, pupunta tayo jollibee db.... paulit-ulit..(hubby is driving like crazy nadin..) i only relax a little when joelits began responding to me telling him we'll go to jollibee..(haay what's with jollibee that makes a kid finally coming back to conciousness!) then we got to the e.r. they gave him first aid and oxygen (buti nalang he stabilized agad) when i saw his eyes normal na and he started to cry na (though ayaw ko sha naririnig umiyak) haaay thank you Lord, super naiiyak talaga ako... then nagpaadmit nlang kami muna to have him monitored,take necessary exams for him and take medication for his fever, buti nman ok na, d following day makulit na ulit sha, nagcheck out na kme, sha ok na, ako hindi pa, kahit super sleepy na ako,id wake up in the middle of the night finding myself crying as i rem the look of joelits the moment he had the febrile convulsion, at day, lumilipad ang isip ko,hindi ako mapakali,i check on them every min evry sec. mejo o.a. na everytime i txtd someone about joelits condition maiiyak nnman ako, when they sleep during the day, gustu ko katabi nla ako until they wake up to make sure hndi na maulit, when joelits cries or scream, natataranta ako, lalo na at nyt, one tym, we are all asleep when joelits suddenly screamed, bgla ako napabangon carried joelits and called on to hubby( gutum lang pala si joelits...) puyat nanaman kami ni hubby!
very traumatic experience, ang hirap alisin on my system, it forever changed my life, i brought back the girlscout in me agen(laging handa ngyek!) so when out with my little boys, i make sure i have ear thermometer, coolfever,paracetamol,fully charged fone. i have a new hobby now, bodytemp.checker!mwehehe




my little joelits back to his makulit mode now(thank you Lord) and i don't know when i'll be totally fine, ok lang, wag nalang ang kids...may they always be in good health.