embracing the reality

yup, starting today, i promise myself to embrace reality....and the realty business to be exact!hehe i should have done this years ago!years when the business is starting, should have been growing with it.... aniways better late than never!I have to love this business since this is the one that made our lives still-surviving-despite-of-all-the-trials-mode! though flying is still and always will be in my heart have to prolong my setting aside the passion of my life and focus on loving the real estate business! i have to... its the only thing i could to do to extend a helping hand to my parents and my hubby as well as to make our little boys future a brighter one!AND i have to be good on this! so i cud easily go back to flying and fullfill my dream of giving my family the comforts of travelling the world free or on discounted rates hehe so goodluck for me! hehe so now what? ok i've been searching the net for seminars on real estate and other things related to it!luckily i found this one :)
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year of learning

found myself writing a list of short courses and seminars of things i wanna explore this year!here's my list: (hope i can attend even just half of it!hehe)

1.Real Estate Marketing (obviously for our biz so i can help nman my family!and im not that ignorant with the real estate world!)

2. Party Planning/Business with Balloon Decor (ofcourse i want to pursue a passion i just have discovered and put it in good use!)

3. Sushi Making( also a discovered passion that can be of good use!) wanna learn how to make other japanese sushi making

4. pastry making (desserts and cake decorating) honestly wanna learn how to operate the oven..hehe and if mei future in cake decorating, that'll be nice!ill be making my boys birthday cakes! and all other special occassions cake! also desserts and other pastries pwede for giveaways!

5. how to make herbal soaps,shampoo,tea bsta anything conected with producing nice things from plants or fruits :)

6. food/resto biz- my hubby wants to put up a food biz someday,wanna learn so i can help and support him :)

7.printing station biz seminar-how to put up one, with xeros machines,printers, and how to make personalized stuffs( i wanna put up an all in one printing station or kahit na franchise lang...i also have a talent with printables hehe)

8. Make-up traning, i once loved puting make-up to friends...thought i have a talent, maybe i can also be a good make-up artist someday!

9. agri-biz seminar have to know for our farm....

10. language school! always wanted to learn french and german and thai and spanish and what else? hehehe just 1 at a time!

so there! ope i can enroll kahit half of mylist for this year, really wanted to learn and put those things in good use! have to!

weight management!

ive been having difficulty with my weight management this past few months? i'm not losing weight! instead, im gaining more! this should stop! visited mariefrance for help again nd to finally finish my treatments long overdue! ms.patty told me must be from my food diet..err...somethings wrong with my diet... so we go back again to the basics which is to list down my food intake and from there we can assess what to do what foods to avoid,minimize and eat more. honestly im having a hard time following this simple step... maybe brought by my taking pills (they say pills have this effect of increasing your appetite that's why most pill takers increase weight.) ms.patty suggest that i should not give in to the appetite,drink lots of fluids,minimize eating foods rch in carbohydrates esp.refined starches as it makes u feel hungry agad. well, good luck ling, lets see in a month or two if mariefrance can help you with ur weight management!

calling Bro

at this moment in time...i don't wanna entertain bad vibes...i just cant. there have been soo much bad vibes from the past months...and i just can't handle it now. i swear! i have forgotten where to get some strength when i feel weak... ahh i used to call on Him,usually when i feel down,ull find at the adoration chapel near our place or wherever i see one i just went there and talk to Him...... He has been my bestfrend long forgotten...(i soo sorry) i used to be like santino(from the primetime teleserye "may bukas pa"?! kapamilya ako...) so im santina...(corny corny...)

honestly i missed You... it has been years since the last time ive' had a heart to heart talk to you...im sorry, maybe im still adjusting to my new life...to be what You love me to be..a good and loving wife and mom... though i still not that a perfect mom, but im loving my boys...still on the process of making them proud of me... still on the process of perfecting time management for everything. You have given me so much blessings in life: my loving hubby, my two equally charming boys, my ever patient and supportive family...my dad's health. (still praying for his continuos recovery from cancer) soo much to be thankful with actually.... and i thank You Lord for everything!

but u know me..i easily get down when i or my family experience not so good things... i just feel my family's pain in double... though i know u made us to be survivors in life...im here agen to ask for ur help to take away the sadness in my heart, the negative vibes surrounding my family,my life... pls hear me agen... i just find it difficult to do without Ur grace... Please always surround my family with good vibes,happiness and love so we may be able to overcome our challenges (once agen) and that we may be able to give love in return to those who gives us negative vibes... i love You, now i feel Your presence agen Thank You Thank You

the real me!

who am i?really?

as i have gone through my old posts, i came across this tag from my sis-in-law,write down 10 random facts about yourself. i realized haven't written the most "significant" facts of myself! like...

err.. it then came to me that i am likely qualified in the vain category?! like vanity hurts-vain! for the very reason of going under the knife?! mwehehe surprised? hehe well only some knows my vanity-dare-birthday gift mwehehe aniways and just recently i've had my upper eyelid tattooed! have met belo and mariefrance, but on the lighter side,im basically the same! hahaha everything on the natural...very natural look!hahaha sayang ang bayad.

aniways, added to the significant facts of my life, though i am vanity hurt vain, and had been cs twiced, my pain tolerance is super low like im super nana!! extremes noh! so when about to experience pain...i make sure that im guarded with the strongest of the strongest painrelievers or anesthesia! weird? hehe i dont know, im just not that against going under the knife...so long as it makes ur life happy ;)nagiiba ba ang vibes!

kanya kanyang trip lang yan.

;)

after the rain...

comes the rainbow...

jarou finally had his 2d echo after a month, and good news, the result is normal na,no more sign of kawasaki disease... though we are required to have regular checks every 6months to be sure that it won't come back and jarou's is still taking aspirin in a month or two,but all in all, jarou's doing great,he's gaining weight again and soon he'll have his first haircut!!yipeey i'm now starting to get busy preparing for his jungle safari birthday!

as for his kuya joelits is also gaining weight,he started schooling at gymboree having fun learning and making friends.

i am so greatful for the progress of my two little boys, Thank you Lord!

my little jarou and the Kawasaki disease...

Thank God we still have the best doctors here in the philippines!

Last week my little jarou was admitted to the hosp. for monitoring of his cough for it has been weeks and even though he had taken meds,changed to antibiotics the cough was still there, and really bothered me na cause usually when he takes meds for coughs or colds after 2 days it'll be gone...and also he has been having fever usually high at night three consecutive days... ah iba na toh ayaw ko nito!

So the morning his pedia ask us if we would like jarou be admitted for monitoring,(kasi mejo makulit na ulit ako sa pedia nya txt every minute..) packed our things and go na to the hosp, the fever is still there kasi and we discovered some rashes on his back (the manangs in the house said ah baka tigdas hangin lang yan...or lalabasan ng ngipin..) i felt something more than that...

jarou got admitted in the afternoon na bec wla pa vacant na rum that morning, we we got to the room, they inserted his i.v na and do some skin tests for his antibiotics for the cough..so the cough...it was diagnosed to be pneumonia...

that night we noticed some redness in his eyes, we thought maybe bec of his high fever and from crying... and yaya flor said ganun daw pag mei tigdas din..

the next morning, jarou still has fever,still has rashes and red eyes, his pedia came to check on him, hmmm she didn't associate the rashes and red eyes to measles... might be something else..then i heard her..nku wag naman kawasaki..err ha,anu po un? kawasaki?mejo natawa pa ako, anu po un?... she didn't say a word about kawasaki, she just told me cge balik ako refer ko din kei dr.santos,(head of infectious disease dept.) para tingin din nya..tnung ko bout d fever bakit taas, she told me maybe from his pneumonia un... asked me how many days na un fever etc.pakuhaan ulit naten sha bloodtest ha, then she left mejo natawa pa kme ni manang flor, "anu ba yan jarou, u look like a japanese na ng pati sakit mo pang-japanese pa!" whell we thought anu b un ndi nman cguro, manang flor keep insisting baka tigdas lang talaga ksi ganyan dinsa mga anak ko pagtigdas mula mata pero pagkawala rashed wala nadin,

after some hours, dra.gan(jarou's pedia) returned with some dr's to check on jarou...ayun they were talking about the symptoms of kawasaki na, they can't confirm as not all the symptoms are showing, only the red eyes and rashes and a high fever which may be associated with the pneumonia, but they can't also rule it out, i rem.they ask me" is his lips red na or its just normal kasi maputi sha...ah normal lang po ayn talagang red lips po sha, i told them, dr.santos said usually the patients with kawasaki mejo not happy babies kasi...pero sha oh happy eh! then he said, he doesn't have all the signs of kawasaki pero meron din kasi that the symptoms show paisa isa pwede din un.... then they agreed to have him undergo 2d echo test to make sure din(better to be sure!) the result of the bloodtest kasi wala pa,

that afternoon, jarou had his 2d echo ( its like ultrasound, sa heart nga lang) ayun, the dr' there upon seeing jarou palang with the red eyes, kawasaki yan. then he looked at jarou's heart at the monitor (while jarou is crying, akala kasi tusukin ulit sha! mejo nagststart na matrauma jarou sa dr's and nurses) he told me normal naman ang heart nya, meron lang na slight fluid at something(u forgot the term) but maaalis naman agad yan ng gamot which is good! but kawasaki talaga sha...i then ask him, doc anu po b un kawasaki???? he told me actually it is still unknown where sha makukuha, not hereditary just the signs & symptoms, madami sha complications and usually 40-50% of the heart and affected the veins kasi lumolobo then nagcclog sometime pumuputok thats the time magheheart attack, its fatal. but as for jarou, buti maaga nalaman, madadala nman ng gamot yan but u have to get him back here for test uli, i saw the result :kawasaki disease...

i texted family and friends na agad, that its kawasaki nga, but still don't know what actions gawin nila as hindi pa nakikita ng dr. ni jarou un result,and shempre kinulit ko nnman ang dr ni jarou,she told me buti nalang we anticipated it earlier so the complications wont be severe,and matreat agad sha, un lang the gamot is mahal but shempre we'll do everything mawala lang ang sakit,money is not important...mejo nagpapanic nako inside dont know kung halata na...that night still jarou has a high fever...

at 4:20am from a slight sleep, i woke up from jarou;s murmuring...nku nagchichill na ang anak ko.. called the nurse, dinalang sha ng spotlight? then sponge bath nmen,usually masungit jarou pag sponge bath,this time hndi sha galit,taas talaga fever nya...i was really worried kasi the experiences ive had with joelits seizure b4..hindi ko na kaya magyari ulit... ayun mejo bumaba na fever... that morning, dra.gan called me on the phone, told me na they'll start to give jarou the treatment for his kawasaki... told me that if dr.santos (actually he is the head of infectious disease dept.) ask me if what type of med to give jarou, to take the mas mahal na gamot as we are sure that it is mas maganda.

at lunchtime mama and the rest of the baranggay was there, joelits and papa followed, they dropped by after joelits schooling at gymboree trinoma. joelits missed his baby bro as he keeps on embracing and kissing him! then jarou's i.v needs to be placed on a new and a better vein so the medication will flow smoothly...well i'd say, thats the hardest part of our stay in the hosp. the resident doc. is having a hard time looking for a vein on jarou's hands and even feet! dra.gan and three more doctors, try their best to look for a good vein to insert the i.v.,12x, everytime they try to insert the needle,every cry,every pain jarou has felt, as if im feeling it to, it breaks my heart to see jarou crying, begging them to pls stop coz he's really hurt... i find myself crying too,trying to hug my little boy,hoping my hug will take away the pain... they have to find a good vein that way,or the last resort would be to put jarou in the operating room and cut his skin and find a good vein.jarou must be treated soon. dr.gan advise me that its better if mom will hold jarou, as the doctors are also maybe being stressed seing me cry with my baby. so mom got in and i ran to our room still hearing jarous cry still breaking my heart... joelits saw me crying and he also heard jarou cry, he wanted to see jarou. as if he also wanted to embrace his baby bro and make him stop cry.... haaaay life...

i asked mama if she could stay for the night while jarou is being treated so if whatever happens she can manage things as i know i myt breakdown...things did well, jarou's temp started to go normal,no more high fever but still have to check bka bumalik,buti nman hindi na,jarou was asleep all the time except for the occasional carrying when the nurse enters the room.. mama didn't sleep she just sits infront of jarou checking,observing jarou's sleep,breath,temp.and ofcourse pressing the button of the machine when it beeps! mama said that i should take some naps so ill have strength the next day,but i find myself also awake most of the time also checking on jarou,

at 6:15am the next day, finally the last dose of jarous imunoglobulin was finished, jarou woke up around 7:30am(wow napasarap ang sleep,usually kc he wakes up at 6am!) wow, like magic! the redness in his eyes and lips were gone! and the fever hndi na bulmaik,parang hindi nagasakit ang little boy ko! we were so thankful to the Lord, thank you thank you Lord!

dra.gan checked jarou also said,galing noh parang magic!she was so happy seeing jarou's condition back to normal, so we only have to finish the antibiotics for the pneumonia then we can go home na!!!haaay!!! but that night jarou started u cry nanaman, we checked on him baka he was hungry or something, called the nurse, she found out that namaga na ung wrist ni jarou from the iv. (the line was out) so she removed the iv immediately and inform the resident dr. and wait for orders if they'll insert a new one again or not animore since there's an oral counterpart of the antibiotics,,helloo!! enough of the iv na!

i texted dra.early in the morning the next day to inform her of jarous namamaga na wrist, se ordered that jarou just take the oral medication instead since we'll be discharged nadin soon, and that day we were discharged from the hosp. jarou's back on his groove happy baby as always, at nasimulan ko na maramdaman ang pagod and super antok....joelits was super happy upon seeing us finally on our very own room! he super duper missed waking up and seeing baby jarou and me on his side! and shempre ang hubby namiss din pala kme..mwehehe...baby girl??? uuyy hindi pa pwede!hehhe upon closing my eyes that night i prayed....thank you Lord ,You've been so good to us!! thank you for hearing my prayers, for the good doctors,for the strength, for the constant support of loving family and friends, for everything! most especially for my hubby and two little boys....my life.